I know my uncle loves his wife so much and he’ll do everything to save her. I also know that he did so much for her to get cured but to no avail. You see, my aunt has even developed a new kind of cancer, and to think it’s the most painful of all the cancers known to man today. I admire my uncle for standing by her side all through these years. It’s very hard to be in his situation.

Life-threatening diseases like cancer not only creates a tremendous financial burden for people but it also affects our psychological well-being. I can only imagine the amount of stress and pressure my uncle has to face on a daily basis. Stress from the thought of a sick wife and pressure to find lots of money to support and sustain her medication and treatments. I sincerely hope and pray that he remains strong and steadfast as he rises above the challenges of this seemingly insurmountable ordeal.

I’m just glad that my pregnancy isn’t sensitive at all. No morning sickness, no bed rest, no skin breakouts, no nothing. I guess I’m just lucky. After all, they say every pregnancy is different. And I believe that. Hopefully, my pregnancy stays complaint-free and smooth-sailing until I give birth.

Speaking of my pregnancy, my next OB appointment is on June 2 and I’m starting to get nervous and paranoid all over again. I hope everything’s okay with our baby. I pray for that everyday.

I have a close relationship with my mom. I guess it’s because she has always confided in me. She’s been brutally honest with me ever since. I love that trait of her. In fact, it was the reason why I also shared everything about myself with her. When your mom treats you like her bestfriend, you couldn’t help but do the same to her.

Just because she treats me like her best friend doesn’t mean she didn’t discipline me when I was still a child. I experienced getting spanked by her countless times (name a spanking weapon and she’s probably used it on me!). But after every spanking session was my mom’s gentle touch and kind words. She’d talk to me seriously and tell me why she had to do it. And I’d always end up realizing that she was indeed right, so naturally the next scene would be our kiss and make-up.

As I grew up, my mom stood by my side. There was not a time that I did not feel her presence in my life. At 56 years old, she’s changed so much physically but her big and loving heart has remained. Even though
we live apart now (since I got married recently!), she’s still my inspiration and my source of strength. Now that I’m gonna be a mom myself, my appreciation of and love for her have multiplied a hundred fold.

Thank you, Mame, for loving me unconditionally. Thank you for showing me the real meaning of love. I pray to God that He gives you a long, long life filled with happiness and bounty. I love you and you know that.

Happy Mother’s Day, Mame…and to all the moms in the world!

I rarely get stressed at home. I’m lucky to have a very kindhearted, patient and loving husband who, now that I’m having his baby, has multiplied the level of kindness, patience and love he’s showing me. I mean, what more could I possibly ask for? I must be a really lucky preggy wife!

These days, I only get stressed at work. The job I have may not be the most stressful job in the world, but it has its fair share of stress. I have tasks to finish on a daily, weekly and monthly basis and sometimes, I couldn’t help but cram. Cramming is bad, I know. It’s an old practice that originated in my college years.*insert sheepish smile here*

I have decided that now that I’m preggy, I should stop cramming and finish my tasks ahead of time. That I should use my time more wisely (which means I have to reduce the time I spend on blogging and blog hopping, haha) so I could dedicate more than enough time to my work. I’m not saying I’m loafing all the time (ouch, that’s not true!), I’m just saying I have to focus more on finishing my tasks faster than before.

So yeah, no cramming for me now until the baby’s born (oooops!).

And then there are also the Baby Center US and UK versions which I also read up on. They’re basically similar with Baby Center PH except that there, you could learn not just from Pinay moms but American and British moms as well. It’s all about physical knowledge, experts’ advice and personal experiences from real moms, so I guess it’s all good.

Are you pregnant right now? If yes, where do you go and what do you read up online?

I’m happy that everything is fine with our baby. We heard the heart beat for the first time and the experience was priceless and out of this world. Yipeeee! We’re very excited about this development and we can’t wait for our baby to be born. I’m okay with whatever the gender is, but one of the grandmas seriously wants a girl she’s even started looking for baby girl clothes and kids bedding sets for girls. Haha.

My due date is still far and I know I will go through a lot in the coming months up to the time of the baby’s delivery. I’m up for it, though. Everything for a healthy and normal baby.

I can’t wait for Saturday to come. It’s only by then that I’ll have peace of mind and closure. Or is it? I don’t know. I’m confused. It’s hard to be a negative-thinker like me at this point.

Dear God, please take my worries and fears away. I know I need to be as optimistic as possible. It’s hard, but I’m trying. All I can say is, Thy will be done.

My MIL brought so much food (pork humba, fried chicken, king crab legs, boiled bananas, suman, bread, assorted chips, sodas, juices and three kinds of tropical fruits). There was no reason to be on a diet so I feasted on everything. We all did. Haha.

As usual, Tanza Oasis didn’t disappoint. We liked how convenient it is to go there, especially for my parents who live just a kilometer away from the place. We plan to do more outings there in the future.

I noticed that in my life, whenever I’d ask for something from God, even if it’s just a whisper and only me could hear it, God listens and grants my request. That’s why even if I’m a self-confessed pessimistic person, I still get to the proverbial silver lining in the end. Funny, but true.

The good news I’m talking about came in the form of cash. Yes, I’m getting some cash soon which I badly need at present. (A home improvement project that went beyond my calculation is eating up my budget these days…dammit!) No, I didn’t apply for a loan, I just found out I’m entitled to receive some money.

You know, I’m just amazed at the thought that problems always get to have solutions, especially money problems. You really don’t need to worry about it very much, though a lot of people can’t help but do just that. Money will come, it always does especially when you ask. Now that rhymes. Haha.

Right now, I imagine myself lying on the couch while watching TV. I guess I’m just bored to death. I hope traffic is light tonight on our way home. I wanna get home fast. At least, that’s what I want right now.

Sorry for the shallow post, I’m just trying to speak my mind and let out some thoughts.