my life, my joy, my dreams
Some thoughts are making me nervous and excited at the same time right now. By Saturday, I know my worries and fears will be gone. They may only be replaced either with grief or happiness. I’m desperately hoping for the latter.
I can’t wait for Saturday to come. It’s only by then that I’ll have peace of mind and closure. Or is it? I don’t know. I’m confused. It’s hard to be a negative-thinker like me at this point.
When things get worrisome, I’m the first to react. I worry a lot, you know. I even used to be a serious negative thinker. But my worries are never shallow. They have bases. They can happen. Oftentimes, though, my worries go away on their own. It’s either I have devised a plan to avert the problem or I have received God’s graces just when I needed them.
One of the things I worry about is my parents’s well-being. They’re growing older and older by the day. Soon, they’d get sick and would need substantial health care. I hope and pray when that time comes, I’d be capable of helping them. Like I could afford getting them adult diapers at disposablemedicalexpress.com and pay for their hospital bill. That’s why I’m saving up money to be able to get them reliable health insurance. The earlier I can do this, the better.
They say when you’re heart is filled with worries, you should think about positive thoughts. This way, positive energy will get in and balance out the negative energy in your system. I know I am surrounded with well-wishers, people like my loved ones and my true friends who support me in whatever I do and think about getting for myself. But sometimes, things can get scary like when suddenly you become clueless of what the outcome of something will be.
I can be very pessimistic. This year, I plan to get rid of this negative trait. I will work on becoming a positive thinker. I know this is quite hard especially for someone who’s been a negative thinker most of her life but what the heck, there’s no harm in trying. I better start now or remain like this forever.